I am feeling a bit under appreciated today.....I know it's a big ol Ang pitty party....but I have to share with you the irony of my life.
Here is how my day has gone so far (it's 8:40am)......
Braden: (while walking out of his room) Mom, I think I have an ear infection.
Me: Oh crap! You feel ok? Do you have a headache?
B: No, just my ear hurts a little.
So within 10 minutes I have made sure he is comfortable, made his favorite breakfast, got him a Dr's appointment for today, and called Rob to see if he could come home a bit early so I could take Braden to the Dr's without having to drag the Wonder Twins along (cuz we all know, no good can come from that).
I walk back in the kitchen and tell Braden that I will be taking him to the doctor's office later that day.......this is what I get in return:
B: You? You're taking me to the doctor's?
Me: Yeah.
B: (looking at me very suspiciously) Which doctor's?
Me: The new doctor.....the one you went to last time.
B: Do you know where it's at? What does the doctor look like? Are you sure you are going to take me? Let's call Dad to make sure it's OK.
What? Like I'm some doppelganger Mom?! Yes, Rob usually takes them to the Dr's office, but I am capable of doing that as well.......maybe they just didn't get that memo. Braden and Brooke then commenced with the "well if Mom's taking me to the doctor, then she's taking you to dance....while I get to stay home with Dad!" fight. No joke.
I have always wanted to be a Mom. I knew that would be the most significant thing I could ever do with my life. So, I didn't even think of starting a career before I had my children..... I wanted no distractions. And for this, I get to be second favorite.
I don't blame my kids....they have an amazing dad. That is one of the many reasons I married Rob......I knew he would be a great father. But sometimes I want to be the favorite, you know? Is it because I am home with them all day that they think I can't possibly be the cool parent that "knows everything"? Is it because Rob gets dressed everyday (you think the lack of a bra and uniform of pajamas may sway opinions?) and goes to work to an office downtown in a super tall building that they think he knows more about life?
My family and friends sometimes do the same thing to me. Like my opinions or ideas are just subpar.....that I could't possibly have come up with that on my own. And the sad thing is......they don't even realize they are doing it.
My mother called last night, and tried to convince me that I wouldn't be able to throw her 50th birthday and "handle" my daily life, as well. Now, if you know me, you know the one thing I can do is plan a party.....that is my forte. But it wasn't until she heard Rob in the back ground saying it was all taken care of......did she leave me alone about it!
Rob's nephew went into the Marine Corps a few months ago. I did a little investigating and found where they post a video of each new platoon with them doing the "cadence" in the background. It was finally posted yesterday, so I sent out an email to his whole family, knowing they would enjoy seeing our favorite little Marine. You know what I got back? Nothing.......not one "thanks, that was cool". Although Rob got several "Where did she get that? Did she find it herself?"......I know, can you believe I tie my own shoes?
I could go on....but I won't. I appreciate you allowing me to vent.....very cathartic for me. Well, that concludes the Ang pity party for today.....hope you had fun. Be sure and take a favor on your way out.....they are self affirmation cards that say:
" I'm good enough, I'm smart enough....and gosh dang it, people like me!"
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