Can you hear that? It's my heart breaking. 4/07/06

My sweet Braden is officially a "big boy". Crap, I thought I would have a bit more time before it came to this....but I guess he will be 6 years old in less than a month. I should have seen this coming.

Today was the first day Braden didn't give me a kiss as I dropped him off at school. He has always been very affectionate and loving. So I would always feel bad for the Kindergarten Mom's whose sons and daughters refused to show some sort of recognition of separation (aka a hug and kiss) when dropped off at the door.......and I secretly prided myself that Braden would still give me a hug and a kiss no matter where we were, or who was around.

But today, as I pulled up to drop him off....there was a bunch of older boys walking by the car. I said "Love you, have a good day, give me a kiss". And he said "Awww, Mom.....today?" I think I could actually hear my heart crack a little. I just smiled and said "No, that's ok.....have a good day." He looked kind of sheepish as he got out of the car, but I get the whole "trying to save face in front of the guys" thing, so I just smiled and waived at him.

I didn't cry. Yeah, I'm just as surprised as you are. Maybe it's because I know that even though it may not be "cool" to kiss me in front of the boys.......at bedtime tonight, he will be asking me to come in, tell him a story, and cuddle with him. And I will take that......cause who knows when that will stop.